I'm so twitchy right now. No more caffeine for the rest of the day, to prevent more twitchiness, and it's not even eight o'clock
WTF brain!
So. My autumn semester started Monday. I found out a little after midnight Sunday night that there was a problem with one of my classes. I had not been aware of any problem until then; I have a sneaking suspicion I should have known it, but nothing I've been sent about school has any indication of this totally annoying problem.
It is now Wednesday morning and I am finally contacting somebody to help me about this. Yes, that's from Sunday to Wednesday without doing anything. No, I'm not very happy with myself about it, either. No, it could not have been helped -- much; the situation was unavoidable but I did aggravate it when I should have been resolving it.
I think in my head, the yeses and nos above are addressed at my mother, who is going to be deeply disappointed in me when she finds out, and I mean deeply disappointed as only a mother can be. If you were ever a rotten kid/teenager who did something really stupid, and instead of being punished, had a parent tell you, "I'm not angry. I'm just sad" -- that is
exactly what I'm dreading.
I'm still angry at myself for emailing instead of phoning, but I think I've been it off till now in part because my timing blows and in part because I really hate phoning strangers. Email is not phoning strangers, therefore I am more apt do it, and and some point this whole "getting over the phone thing" has been eclipsed by non-phone-thing urgency.
I notice that on some level, I am
still explaining this to mom-in-my-head instead of to my general blog-reading public. How vexing for us all -- and I'm including my real mother in that "us."
At least the solution is in motion and my twitches have mostly faded. That won't stop me from compulsively checking my email every few minutes to look for a reply, but I'm still better off today than yesterday.